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WHO AM I?

Writer's picture: Petra HadžidaovaPetra Hadžidaova

But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, …

John 1: 12 (NIV)


Who am I?

INTRODUCTION

Satan uses shame to bring us into an identity crisis. If he can get us to question our identity in Yeshua, then he can cut us away from the divine love of God. As a result, we fail to receive and give that perfect love of God. We enter into a love deficit.


A VISITATION OR SATAN’S SCHEME?

After my apprenticeship ended I landed a job a bit away from home. And it was in this season of my life, that I felt the true definition of loneliness and isolation. My mistakes and my newness kept me away from really letting people in.


I had walls built around my heart - invisible walls I did not see. All because I did not wish to speak about my past.


Since I was never good at making new connections, I ended up stranded alone in a city away from home. While I loved the newfound freedom, a desire for a deeper connection arose here and there. A desire for a community.


I did find myself with a lot of free time. I spent it all reading the word of God and going for walks. For a year all was at peace, come December. I had the desire to leave and begin my business. But peer pressure from family and coworkers and spiritual attacks made me rethink. I decided to stay much to my chagrin.


I was unsure of what I was going through and kept battling against the attacks. That is when I met an elderly man in need of lodgings. I provided him with some respite, but he turned out to be disrespectful. The uncalled-for situation caused me great shame and I built even greater walls.


When covid hit Slovenia in April, I gradually began to feel more and more weakened. It was in this season of my life that I began to question my identity in Christ. I kept asking the Father, “Who am I?”


WHO AM I?

As we established in our previous blog post, shame is a scheme of the enemy. It is a direct attack against our identity in Christ. Or rather it is a cursing of our identity.


Satan uses it to sow lies, and heart viruses inside our hearts. If he succeeds, us believing the lie and questioning our identity cuts us from the fullness of life God has for us. That way we can not be the authentic expression of Heaven on Earth to the fullness. (1) Anger and addictions start to manifest and become a problem.


While the world tries to manage anger as though it is the problem, Pastor Craig Hill says it is merely a symptom of an underlying problem. Shame to be exact, which itself is rooted in idolatry. (2)


At the New Beginning Therapies, they state the following statistics regarding anger issues.


- 30% have a friend or family member who has trouble controlling their anger.

- 25% worry about how angry they sometimes feel.

- 20% have ended a relationship or friendship with someone because of their anger.

- 60% agree that people in general are getting angrier.

- Less than 15% have sought help for their anger problems.

- 45% of us regularly lose our temper at work.

- 80% of drivers say they have been involved in road rage incidents.

- 25% of drivers have committed an act of road rage themselves.

- 50% of us have over-reacted to computer problems with anger. (3)



When battling identity issues, we need the Father’s opinion about who we are. In our previous post, I mentioned sowing into the spirit as an option. It is most effective in situations where we have sinned. Another method I will mention today is based on the same principle.


When anger or addictions arise, we need to go to the very root of the problem. Craig Hill uses the next process (2):


  • What has set off this behavior? We need to ask our Heavenly Father to show us when this began.


The answer can come in many ways, usually though we are reminded of an unpleasant memory. A memory in which we may have been a victim of abuse, mockery, derision, or may have been embarrassed. And in that moment we may have let the lie come into our hearts.


  • We should ask ourselves how that had made us feel and identify the lie. Pour out your soul. Be thorough.

  • Then we turn to God and ask, “What do you say about me? What message did you want to convey to me that day? Who am I?”


Our Father in Heaven will show us. He will reveal His heart to us. He will reaffirm us in our Sonship as the sons and daughters of God that we are. Loved, beloved, righteous, valuable, worthy, beautiful …..


CONCLUSION

“Who am I?” is a question we should ask our Heavenly Father when finding ourselves in an identity crisis. Always go to the Father when your faith is being tested. Only He knows truly who He has created you to be. Only He holds the key to your identity.


Application

When battling bouts of unforeseen anger or dealing with addiction ask the Lord when did begin this affliction. Listen and take note. Once it is revealed identify the lie you believed and were told. Turn to the Father and ask, “Who am I?”, let Him reaffirm you in your identity as the son and daughter of the Most High.


SOURCES

  1. Benji & Alanna Alexander. The 7 Sacred Pathways to Intimacy.

  2. Craig Hill. The truth will set you free (Online course). Available at Empower 2000 Academy.

  3. A New Beginning Therapies. Anger issues. Available on World web https://www.anewbeginningtherapies.co.uk/anger-statistics/

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